Another Train Delay
Last night when I went to Ipswich, the trains were delayed because of someone being hit by a train at Romford. One member of staff thought it was a suicide. From the traffic reports during thye day, I also got the impression, there had been another suicide in West London.
We didn’t get this number of suicides on the train lines, when it was easier to buy drugs in the chemist to take a fatal overdose. So you stop it one way and then people change their tactics.
C once did the divorce for a paramedic, who used to climb under the trains to get people out, after they had jumped in front of a tube train. Often they didn’t succeed in their aim and just lost both of their legs.
Let’s face it, some have worried that I might commit suicide after the last few years I’ve had.
But whilst I can still carry on, I will.
There might come a time, when I am in so much pain, that suicide might be a better option for some. But I suspect, I’ll still carry on, as after all, when the lights go out, there is nothing there at all!
The Anonymous Widower 
Fascinating information about suicide. I too believe that if someone is determined to “end it all” they will succeed, sooner or later, however many attempts it takes. it is quite different from the “cry for help”, where someone wants to be saved. I once had a work colleague down in Luton, a lovely lady who worked as a Samaritan and who used to receive harrowing and distressing calls from people at the end of their tether. She helped as many people as she could but accepted that, realistically, it wasn’t always possible.
The paramedic whose divorce C arranged must have seen some dreadful sights. I wonder if his work had any bearing on the divorce.
I’m sure you yourself will soldier on. You seem very grounded and an individual who is both interesting as a person and interested in life, despite having had more than your fair share of sorrow and misfortune. You seem to have borne it all manfully and with fortitude, and that is to be commended. As you say, nobody can foresee what they would do if in unbearable pain, but then who knows the future? If there is an afterlife, you surely deserve it.
On an earlier post of yours, you mention that women may be less likely to commit suicide because of having a better network of friends etc (or words to that effect). This is probably true, in most cases, preventing the social isolation that can lead to desperation and despair.
Comment by Janice Mermikli | March 10, 2013 |
At least as regards pain, I have a very high pain threshold.
https://anonw.wordpress.com/2009/06/30/its-not-the-size-of-the-dog/
In this incident, I was stitched up by a competent doctor without any anaesthetic. It was painful, but I knew it would end.
Comment by AnonW | March 10, 2013 |